Currently Listening Ænima By Tool see related

I have an overactive bladder. It's a problem really.  When I'm nervous or restless, it seems I'm pissing every other five minutes, which probably coincides with my many anxiety issues. However the other day, as I was urinating, I had a sort of personal revelation. Instead of writing some eloquent poem, formulating a new philosophy, or even attaining more oneness with God, I realized that I was literally pissing my existence away. This vision doesn't really appeal to me. To think my greatest contribution to this world is hundreds of thousands of gallons of piss.

And I know what you're thinking: Damn, that's a lot of "of's" 

Dude, I know. Thus my dilemma.

I have to go to the bathroom now.

Sexual Mood:  The stoic doesn't fight. He waits.

Currently Listening Heaven Or Las Vegas By Cocteau Twins see related

I like the story of Adam and Eve, simply because it portrays the universal natures of both man and woman. Everyone knows about their eating the tree, blah, blah, blah. Eve basically encourages Adam to do something and he complies stupidly. And there you have it! The eternal pattern: women mislead men, and men like gullible idiots follow them.

This will probably continue forever too until the world ends, if it ends. I'm not for sure how it would. Maybe zombies or aliens or nuclear missiles. Or maybe one galactic sized, worldwide mass suicide. That would be fun.

My favorite scenario would have to be this, though. Every spirit caged in the Land of the Dead would return to the living world and wreak havoc upon it for absolutely no reason. Perhaps for revenge here and there but mostly only for eons of intense boredom.

Either way I'll be dead. So, I think I'll just be passive and enjoy where the river takes me in between.

^ Love me??

Currently Listening A to B: Life By Mewithoutyou see related

Guys. Guys. Guys. Guys.

I have something very important to say. Please listen:

Chris Westin has a massive penis. Even in cold weather.

Ok. Thanks for listening.

Sexual Mood:  I hate venereal diseases.

Currently Listening Strange Days By The Doors You're Lost Little Girl see related

Sometimes, I wish I could master being asexual. Things are simple that way. My thinking is that it's better to lead a significant life than it is to have a significant other, but I always find a way to prove myself a hypocrite. It's natural to like somebody, I guess.

But I don't believe in true love. It's too easy. True love is supposed to be ever enduring, and easy things just don't stay forever. Maybe you pray or look to astrological signs for romantic direction. That's cool. Personally, though, I think love is something you create. Something, which is very practical, like building stuff. There are laws of physics governing the whole process. Such as...you can't build a concrete foundation upon water. It doesn't work for some reason. Gravity is another thing to consider, I've heard. Yep.

So, maybe we should stop acting like clueless dumbasses when a relationship fails. Don't blame fate, or God, or your friends, or the other person. You chose to like him/her. They weren't what you expected? You're personally responsible for judging their character and getting to know them. There's much to consider before seriously involving yourself with somebody else.

And even with that said, slightly cynically, I'm all for lasting relationships. It's good to be there for someone, to be their protector and confidant. If someone can do the same for you, that's likely the best way for spotting the "right" person.

And you know, I could be full of shit. Trial and error is all I have.

Goodbye.

Sexual Mood:  Everything is beautiful, and the lovemaking is just amazing. Fuckin yeah right. Shoot me now. And throw my body downstream. I'll land on some nude beach, where horny necros will rape me. But I'll be too dead to enjoy it.